Time

I used to play cricket and when one face a fast bowler, there is only a split second to judge the length, bounce and direction of the ball to react. If you make an error, you are out or your effort will bring no runs to your credit, you would remain on the same score. This case worsens if you are inexperienced. I think these days the time is playing fast bowler to me. It is not giving me chance to think, judge and react properly. I am playing my shots blindly and the result: Still standing but stalled. Is it just me time is flaying by for, or someone else feels the same way. I don’t know for sure.

Sometime it scares me. I want to keep moving towards my winning target. I know I would never reach to that target as self actualisation stage never comes but at least I want to be nearer to that as much as possible and that is possible only if I keep scoring. Somehow, I am still surviving the bowling for some reason. It is Grace of God because of my parent’s prayers, amount of experience I acquired or something else, which I don’t know about.

But the uncertainty never goes, I want to be certain about things and I want to see things clearly. May God Help Me!